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So...this is love?

Sat, 14 Apr 2007 22:06:49 GMT

Oh, It Is Love

oh, it is love
from the first time I set my eyes up on yours
thinking oh, is it love?

oh dear
it's been hardly a moment
and you are already missed
there is still a bit of your skin
that i'm yet to have kissed
oh say please do not go
when you know you know that I must
oh say I love you so
you know you know you can trust

we'll be holding hands once again
all our broken plans I will mend
I will hold you tight so you know

it is love from the first
time I set my hand into yours
thinking oh is it love?

dear, its been hardly three days
longing to feel your embrace
there are several days
until I can see your sweet face
wouldn't it be nice to be older and married with me
oh say wouldn't you like to know right now that we'll be

someday holding hands in the end
all our lovely plans will have been
I will kiss you soft so you know

it is love from the first
time I pressed my lips against yours
thinking oh is it love?

your heart may long for love that is more near
so when i'm gone these words will be here

to ease every fear
and dry up every tear
and make it very clear
I kiss you and I know

I kiss you and I know

yup. it is.

recap: Greg sucks, Rick....he's actually finally....mine.

AND I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THAT!!!!

=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Sounds like an awesome day...

Wed, 14 Mar 2007 03:13:41 GMT

and it WAS you guys!!!

you guys = people who dont even read this

oh well, like i said

i'll come back to it and see for myself

1 of 2 things:

either how much i've grown in this relationship

or how idiotic i was.

it most likely will be the first =)

anyways, fun past couple of weeks....

its been a little over a month for Gregarious and myself

and im still crazy about him!!

he is just....the best boyfriend i've ever had...

i really do adore him.

~~maybe~~ even love him.

i know i will fall for him

oh yeah, most definately!!

he came over to my house today!!

i was so happy

i still am!!

he came over

and spent time with me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

we'll definately do that more often,

did i tell you?

he has two horses [cant remember the names]

he has three dogs [Sassy, Bo, and King (oh and Jack too)]

and he has a snake [Nick]

i cant wait until i'm able

to go to his house!!!

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay.

this is what it feels like.....

.....when you're falling....

and i know i am.

man...this kid is amazing

i want to show him off to the world!

he is my boyfriend

and-----------

i &hearts; him.

he's smart, funny, READS, plays chess, and bass, and guitar...

man. he rocks

Could you maybe, like, STOP tripping me?

Sun, 04 Mar 2007 03:43:43 GMT

hmm, well....nevermind

i don't mind

the view from down here means i'll always be looking up

and thats where i can find you

oh alright

so its not yet

but you know what--

i do not know

maybe no

but then again maybe

maybe its yes

well, i highly doubt it

but i think i could very well with him

i can see myself falling for him

and i can only hope he's there to catch me

and im sure he will me ;D

well, i just felt like posting

its for myself anyway

so i can come back

and read it

and fall all over again

into these memories of amazingness

haha

and right behind the second pillar from the left

in front of the school

he kissed me

so tech. OUR first kiss

and i think i liked his the best

it was so sweet

we were both terrified i think

but now its all okay

<3 i know i know

haha

im happy leave me be

well, i shall talk to you later

write here later....

yeah....remember forever, 3/1/07 kisses!! bye buhs

Saturday, February 24, 2007

Sat, 24 Feb 2007 03:33:50 GMT

If ever the same it was ever a surprise

It was surprisingly the same.

And I felt alive...

Of course no sense this makes

No time it takes.

Simple.

Words are written

Down on paper.

Does it make a poem?

Should I include an evil omen?

Does it rhyme and does it flow?

Where in the world

Are the words supposed to go?

Am I to write

From inside my heart?

And a bursting forth...

I have made art.

From the silence deep within me

Laid quietly to rest

I brought up things you should see

Words expressing love, expressing detest.

And a feeling

Growing strong

Sends you reeling.

There's so much wrong.

Nightmarish faces

Deathly hallowed places

Panic attacks me.

What is wrong to being right?

And in being right we are so wrong...

So in a world we don't belong

I'm writing down

These words and such

It took some time

But not too much.

Is this a poem?

With rhyme schemes and things?

Oh, I'll show 'em,

For I wrote from the heart--

Was ever there a different place to start?

Conquistador Beki Elodie Irene Cassidy Pennelope Eloquence Roman

Hey, wait. How's about you an' me?

Wed, 21 Feb 2007 23:13:31 GMT

*eyeroll//shaking head with amused smile*

Oh ok. Sadies. we'll start with Sadies.

It was fun, we went to Lino's before to eat

i was basically ignored but

i didnt really mind.

i was frazz-a-dazzled

and i fell under the table

my friend Grace and my date, Greg

just kind of laughed at me

it was pretty hilarious

anyways we got to the dance

we danced

*dancing going on*

Greg danced with Jo-ey...that was enjoyable (slow dance)

it was tons and oodles and uber fun

and all that sweet jazz

*trying to speed up writing*

so i got a ride home from Jared, who was also taking Greg home

and i actually knew how to get home

so, we pull into my driveway

and i say thanks! *to J's dad*

see you Tuesday! *to Greg//Jared*

and im opening the door...

my leg is out the car door...

*tapped on shoulder*

"What?" *turns to see Greg*

"Hey...how's about you an' me?"

"Whaa....yeah, of course!"

and thats how it went down

Is it okay that I like you?

Sun, 18 Feb 2007 16:06:56 GMT

haha, i am such a dweeboid.

i said that to someone

and he was just so shocked

it was hilarious

"Well...uh...that's...good to know."

but then he called me later

and i was up until 11 on a school night

i didnt even realize

wow.

anyway, he's a pretty awesome guy

he plays bass, has amazing hair =), and he can be very cute

and for those who know me, i dont use that word

unless im talking about my doggykins

because i do have the cutest dog

well, Sadies tonight

i did happen to ask whom i referred to

^ up there

to the dance

and quite obviously, he said yes

haha...that was a weird one

anyways...the goings on i will repost later

if anything interesting happens, ill repost for myself

since no one really reads these

i cant wait to describe his dancing to you

this is gonna be a killer kick-awesome night

So...You're a girl, huh?

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 18:04:39 GMT

haha, i love that icon quote

anyways....school is fine and fun like usual....just two weeks after semesters and i got all A's and B's with my GPA being 3.5....so im doing OKAY but i could do better. Next year i already have the promise of three honors classes i think! or at least 2....kinda exciting i guess!! i might be smart!! woo!! haha

well, all girls can talk about now-a-times is the Sadies dance thats coming up, the one where girls ask the guys. i wasnt going to ask anyone, or even go at first but my friends really wanted me to go so i did end up asking my friend Greg to go, and he said yes...i think it'll be fun to come back here during summer or w/e when i lose touch with half my new friends and be like "I remember that...aww man...i miss them."

the prospect of summer is depressing...they'll be so many people i wont see or anything for a whole 3 months and when i come back to school who knows if ill ever see them again...seriously, i already know im losing one of my friends come next year....ill be very sad but he and i arent friend friends anyway....still doesnt make me feel less sad.....maybe ill be able to talk to him online or something still though i doubt it....=( i just depressed myself

that was basically it...Sadies date...my mom knows = EEK haha ttyl bye buh

2007!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mon, 01 Jan 2007 19:14:21 GMT

well its Jan. first today!!!! 007!!! haha, that's a great grad year thing.

lucky ducks all we'll freaking have is class of '10....how homosexual!!!!

anyways...my new year's eve was fun....party at Amanda's with Joe, CJ, Nick, Claire, Lissi, Amanda, Me!, Erin, Grace and Carolyn....we had tons of fun talkin, just chillin, dancing to disco music.....yup yup!.....we counted down the new year and it felt wonderful right where i was as the clock turned towards the midnight hour. No kissing (this time) hahahaha, that was a weird convo me and Amanda had about that "dilemna" i kno i spelt it wrong.....and btw NO I WAS NOT FLIRTING ALL NIGHT......good golly miss molly, you'd think i was some little girly girl player...am NOT all u text messagers who kno who you are tellin me crap and what-not...get over yourselves, i am NOT stealing anyone's man b/c that's would be just about the meanest thing ever and i would never do that to any of my friends.

other than that, the night ended on a momentarily depressing note, Amanda got hit in the eye with my bracelet by George on accident and he felt soooo bad...then me and Erin felt bad and it was just sad until everyone got happy again on account of some well-to-do hug attacks and smiles.

oh, and Joe just about got me the GREATEST PRESENT EVER!!! yay!! i love you Joe!!!

well update l8r bye buhs.

oh, AND IM ON MY LAPTOP!!!! FREAKING A YES!!!!! =P

Saturday, December 23, 2006

Sat, 23 Dec 2006 21:02:40 GMT

so yea basically
i'll check out the coming back
here and writing thing
i guess some strangers read this
no one comments but oh well really
who cares?
but i just went back and read all my entries and
i laughed
i cried
i stared at the computer in sheer wonderment
did i say that?
oooo i remember that!
he did that?!
wow, we said that and thought we were tight?
hahaha
yea basically....so here's a rundown
of my high-school life
//the summer before i was infected with high-schoolitis
starting from the tests

(tests) got my hair cut the day before....a whopping 10 inches off donated to LOL....went to the tests and didnt go with all my friends into a classroom.....recently learned i was in the same as CJ which is sweet.....next day bball game that we sucked and lost

(summer) decided not to go to camp....gave up the the hair straightening thing....fell in love with Tidus....beat FFX-2 twice....took tennis lessons at RCC.....met Kevin there, he was pretty freaking tight "steroids" haha....found out im better than Barb at something!!....Kaimber and I meet once, but its over....hanging with Erin and Amanda...bored at my moms....videogames....dreading school....found the video camera + artistic genious + hyperactive girls = very very very hilarious videos we took while on sugar-highs....Patti and Dad announce marriage plans....dress shop "urgh ick yick yuck"...Kevin's 12 hour party "OMH".....DDR got cancelled as basement at moms was being modified....learned to make killer white spaghetti....GWL with Erin and Amanda (goes at beginning really)....Boogie Shoes....mall....Magic Waters season passes "wonderful..im so happy....cant u tell? =("....Wooly Bully....dreading school....1st uncomfortable MW trip.....moms computer fun.....2nd uncomfortable MW trip....rain and im dancing.....no more lake remembering....Raven leaves for good =(....new neighbors at moms...Bill is missing crisis...Amanda's cousin Jeff comes and we all hang out and make two new videos....large animal in basement scare....never liked Dish on Demand better....dreading school....mom is hospital....tennis draws to a close...see POTC2 with Erin and her mom and moms friend (rum in the theater!!).....Erin gets me Pirate Medallion....dreading everything about the new year.....baby Emily =(.....new room for me and Barb at moms.....first day draws closer....last day = swimming at Ol' Golden Lake (i got to pick name!!) with the Ninjaites, campfire we made, smores, rope swinging into water, no feelings for Jaske anymore, each sing our solo songs around fire, Ninjaites- DEPART for good....basement done....summer is over

(school highlights up to this very date) first day, scared to death...meet Marisa find out she's in 4 of my classes....book buying....saying bye to friends old and a few new.....next day, uniforms? see all classes, still scared....cant open locker....homeroom = silent as a grave....the Murphinator!!!....Freshman dance is when my life really started...met Adam, "Jose", Dan C (his last name is Cox hahahahahaha), Claire H, Rick, Dan K, Nickerative, Alex A, Alex O and i speak once more, Greg, Peter, Lauren D, Lauren K, Lauren F, Grace is back, Carolyn back, Carrie back, Claire M, Erin back, Amanda back, Matt O, Zoey, many many many hott//cute guys, Jacob F, Adam A, CJ!!!, Mary-Kate, Ashley, Jared, a few Zach//Zacks, Tyler, Reed, Ryenn, Chuck (i kno someone named Chuck!! wo0t) Craig, Dreyj, Dan A....other people i cant think of right now....on tennis team...it sucks pretty hard to have no one i know in ANY of my classes at first...meet new people in classes...moved to lower academic math with Walls, Peter, Ryenn, and Laurens and Dan C....pushed into locker down senior hallway on way to history...Peter helps them stop by walkin with me...decide i got the WORST schedual possible...cant spell for crap sometimes....classes are really easy....smash fingers in locker now they r retarded....get nickname Smart Girl....get Little Brown Girl nickname thanks to Ryan B.....want to play football but cant....homework brings me down....myspace...over 1000 icons collected....football games....4 person party....bringing DDR parties back soon....first French in front of class thing definately = panic attack....finally able to say prayer in French class!!!! in front of EVERYONE!!!...French bonfire trip (first talk to Adam A)......French Trip to Chicago!! (actually become AA friend).....getting to school in Mazarati with no heat at 5:30am....getting to school super early.....have no life....CJ is my dollar general life we decide...go see Eragon with CJ and Ashley and poor Lauren we didnt find!....ice hogs games....POTC3 comin out!!....Jo-ey's surprise party!!...Jeepers Creepers (aww hot guy dies)....Ed Speelers = new movie person likey....read Eragon for 21st time!!!....Trip over someone's legs in the hallway = hilarious....fall down stairway only once....ran into window in math...quarter one stuff and tests not soo bad and good report card.....2nd quarter exams and whatnot not soo hard but i had 6 while everyone else gets like 4 or 3 or even just 2 *madface*......aura abilities found out.....broken MP3...."Big Cookies".....15 puzzle solved, still haffa best Jared's time....licorice for the first time thanks to Greg...apology letter....rubberband ball trouble...."taken" for 3 days...Grace is gonna tech me piano!!!!....finger trouble again....Christmas break...got Joe the BEST present for a buck =)....sad b/c i wont see anyone until next year...have no life....writing a new book...again?.....thats all for now

(on the side) i hate babies
                   Jane must have a mental disorder
                   Mazarati fun = Barb finally gets stereo
                   Megan around more (sp?)
                   Friends with Casey E from Barb's bball (3rd manager) (sp? again)
                   Father//Daughter dance = bust
                   Patti//Dad married Oct. 14
                   say : "omh"
                   Bekky to be Beki
                   Full name = Beki Elodie Irene Cassidy Pennelope Roman (hahah BEICPR = Be I CPR) its funny!
                   Erin//Me inside jokes//Amanda//Other people//things i heard and like to put here
                   Kitty!
                   It Bit Me!
                   Gypsy in a love boat.
                   I'll be ur sultan baby!
                   Classic rock, classic kick-ass all the time
                   He has "the hair"
                   DBZ..is the shiznits (hahahahahaha)
                   *Shoes video*
                   *Muffin video*
                   This is Charlie, I named him Jacovious....Jacovious Bacon Junior

thats all for now...hahahaha....loooong...Joe, since ur prolly the only one going to read this is anyone does...leave me a comment
this was fun
ill update more
much
more
if i can
and feel like it
also...go to Randomness_Quotes for icons and quotes = my site so give love
ttyl bye buhs

Sunday, November 05, 2006

Sun, 05 Nov 2006 21:26:44 GMT